A RELATIONSHIP THAT HAS CHANGED

DAY 730

Nine o’clock in the morning. It’s an important day, I guess. I'm staring at the ceiling without knowing very well what to do. I guess he wouldn’t want me to waste a sunny Saturday morning. I get out of bed and walk straight to de cupboard. Yesterday, in the news said that it wouldn’t be cold. A dress, jean jacket and my covers. I dress up and go down the stairs to the kitchen. Silence, they haven’t woken up yet. Quietly I begin to prepare the coffee, a few minutes heating the water and making the toasts. “I’ll come back later” I write in the board on the fridge, full of motivating messages, mum’s attempt to fix things. I pick up the keys, my bag and walk outside. There are people in the street, not everyone has free Saturdays. There is humidity, a normal thing in Bristol. I keep walking, without questioning the way. I arrive to my destiny, Bristol’s Residence. I feel like visiting Gramma, it’s been a long time since I’ve seen her, she’ll be happy. Everything is in silence, I saw her in front of a big window, looking outside. We spoke a few hours, she tells me that she has a new friend, Nancy. According to her, old people are tired of doing stuff, and that’s why it’s the rest who make them. I laugh, I think I needed this more than her. I say goodbye, promising that I will return to see her. I walk into a cafeteria and ask for a burger, in his honour, it was his favourite plate. I eat and then pay the check, say thank you and go outside. I finally stopped at a park and sit in a bank, watching the pond, full of fishes and ducks living in perfect harmony. After a while, I have the courage to go to the flower stand that is on the other side of the lake. Lilacs, he always liked Lilacs. I start to walk saying to myself that the sooner I do it the better. After twenty minutes, when the sun was already hiding behind the horizon I get there. Everything is so quiet, almost like nothing can ruin the peace. It’s been two years since the accident, and it still hurts like it was yesterday. We miss you Jeremy.